So I feel I am what I would call in a spiritual awakening. I think that I have been for several years but just didn't realize what was going on. I had started to question a lot of things and one of them was my religion and what I was basically raised to believe. I have always kind of been the one who went against the grain so it really is no surprise that my beliefs wouldn't be the exception.
Because I have so many unanswered questions about religion and the truth…something has been stirring in me for awhile. I have so many unanswered questions regarding my beliefs that I really started to question. I also felt that as a Christian, I was so conflicted between right and wrong, being a hypocrite and not. One of my first realizations was when I had a desire to see the Dali Lama. I had watched a documentary on him and I was just so amazed by the love that just seemed to emanate from him. At my husband's Christmas party one year, I had expressed that one of the items on my bucket list was to see/meet the Dali Lama. The couple that I had expressed that too were from the church that we attended at that time. He had a look of somewhat disbelief and horror all in one. As surprised as I was at the look on his face, I was even more surprised at his words that followed. He informed me that the Dali Lama was the Anti-Christ! Wow, I was absolutely confused by the comment and felt like a cross between the kid that just found out that Santa isn't real and one that was told her dreams would never come true with a little bit of shame mixed in. How could I, a Christian possibly want to meet the Dali Lama? Shame on me for having such an evil desire as to want to meet the Dali Lama. I would say that that night was a major turning point in my life as far as making me question is it possible that someone outside of Christianity could have God in their hearts. I mean, can other people of other belief systems, possibly be "Godly"? Or are they just "wolves dressed in sheep's clothing?" As the Bible warned us?
I realized while meditating that I can't be of true service to others until, as the airline stewardess says, I put my own oxygen mask on, I know this is the time that I am supposed to get healthy.
Because I have so many unanswered questions about religion and the truth…something has been stirring in me for awhile. I have so many unanswered questions regarding my beliefs that I really started to question. I also felt that as a Christian, I was so conflicted between right and wrong, being a hypocrite and not. One of my first realizations was when I had a desire to see the Dali Lama. I had watched a documentary on him and I was just so amazed by the love that just seemed to emanate from him. At my husband's Christmas party one year, I had expressed that one of the items on my bucket list was to see/meet the Dali Lama. The couple that I had expressed that too were from the church that we attended at that time. He had a look of somewhat disbelief and horror all in one. As surprised as I was at the look on his face, I was even more surprised at his words that followed. He informed me that the Dali Lama was the Anti-Christ! Wow, I was absolutely confused by the comment and felt like a cross between the kid that just found out that Santa isn't real and one that was told her dreams would never come true with a little bit of shame mixed in. How could I, a Christian possibly want to meet the Dali Lama? Shame on me for having such an evil desire as to want to meet the Dali Lama. I would say that that night was a major turning point in my life as far as making me question is it possible that someone outside of Christianity could have God in their hearts. I mean, can other people of other belief systems, possibly be "Godly"? Or are they just "wolves dressed in sheep's clothing?" As the Bible warned us?
I realized while meditating that I can't be of true service to others until, as the airline stewardess says, I put my own oxygen mask on, I know this is the time that I am supposed to get healthy.